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In the sky with diamonds.

mommyeverafter — Sat, 08 Nov 2014 18:19:44 +0000

“Let me listen to your heart.” my daughter said, as she came towards me just now, half dressed, as we were getting ready for the day. She had a stethoscope around her neck and a pajama top still on. “Where is your heart, mommy?”
So I showed her and she placed the little round piece of metal on my chest and listened, a serious expression.
“Well, I think it sounds good, mommy. It doesn’t sound like it’s cracked.”
But my daughter’s diagnosis was a bit off this morning. Because my heart is a little bit cracked.
This morning, we said goodbye to our 15 year old family dog, Teddy.
We got Teddy during the snowy winter of my Freshman year of high school. He looked like a moving snowball. He loved to show affection and being sweet, but most of all, he loved our Lucy. Lucy was our first dog, a Border Terrier; tenacious, protective, brilliant and nice. Lucy was the best.
Lucy and Teddy were quite the twosome. In fact, they slept in the same small crate every night,
not because my parents were cruel dog owners, but because they loved curling up with one another,
one fiesty Border Terrior and one sweet little Bichon.
I am not sure if Teddy thought of Lucy as his mother, or his life partner, or just his best friend, but Lucy was everything to Teddy.
At 15, Lucy was diagnosed with oral cancer and we lost her in March of 2008.
Teddy stayed up the entire night howling. He knew, somehow, that his Lucy was gone. He was in agony.
And he has never been the same.
His sweetness turned to skittishness, his trust turned to terror at times, and he just couldn’t cope with the loss.
7 years later, it was Teddy’s time to go. I said goodbye to him this morning, and I held him in my arms and wept as my dad stroked his head and said, over and over, “You’ve been such a good boy.”, my mom with red, wet eyes.
So my daughter told me that my heart isn’t cracked, but today it is a bit broken, as I am sad to lose this sweet boy who has been a member of our family since I was 14.
But all I keep thinking is that he can finally be reunited with his beloved Lucy. I bet she is running the show up there, anyway. She always did.
They can share a cozy crate and he can lick her again and perhaps, he will finally, finally be at peace.
We have loved you, Teddy. Thank you for loving us, so much, in return.
We will miss you always.

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My Love.

mommyeverafter — Mon, 09 Jun 2014 20:45:05 +0000

Long ago, we wrote love notes. We wrote each other poems, left little hearts around, exchanged cards and poems.
Now, our love is much deeper.
We have been through the worst together, and I don’t say it enough.
I am so lucky to have a husband who brings home “just because” flowers to me.
That is nice. But that’s not really why I’m lucky.

I’m lucky because I get texts like this:
When skies are gray, both literally and proverbially.
I am lucky that we can go away together for a few short days, and ride our bikes into town for homemade ice cream, and oysters, and cocktails (not in that order) and ride home, chilled, and share a glowing fire and a bubbling jacuzzi, all while singing “Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds” at the top of our lungs.
I’m lucky that I go to bed each night knowing that the person next to me has my back. That every time I look over at him I feel like I must have done something right in this world.
That the man whom I met when I was twenty loves me more now than he did then, even though he loved me instantly.
He is the best person I know. So good. So true. So honorable and kind and brave.
He is right; he is my rock. And I am so lucky.
I am writing this with tears streaming down my face.
I married the kindest, most loving soul.
How did I ever get so lucky?
I will never know.
But I will enjoy every second of it
for as long as we both shall live.

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The sunny spot.

mommyeverafter — Mon, 28 Feb 2011 20:36:00 +0000

No matter what time of day it is,
or what room she is sitting in,
my Lola always manages to find the sunny spot,
small as it may be,
to stretch out and bask and nap upon.

The entire house could be dark and gloomy,
or filled with energy and sound,
and,
without fail,
Lola will have found the one, small slit of light
and curled herself up
in the sunny spot.
She comes by this trait honestly,
as a very special lady used to do the very same,
so many years ago.
My dear Lucy.
Lucy was my childhood dog,
my sweet girl,
whom we lost the very week that my husband and I got our Lola.
Lucy was 16.
She had long since tired of running away in my husband’s backyard.
She was content to lie in the sunny spot,
as the grand dame of the family,
watching over the young ones all around her.
The very last photo we have of our Lucy girl is this
http://mommyeverafter.com/wp-admin/post.php?post=1507&action=edit as she and (her puffy, white, neurotic, mental-gefilte-fish of a brother) Teddy met Lola for the first time. Lucy, never frivolous or particularly generous with her love,
nuzzled baby Lola and kissed her,
a tender seal of approval towards the new puppy in the family.
Lucy was passing the torch to a new furry, little girl.
And two days later, Lucy went to heaven.
And we’ve all missed her every day, ever since.
A few months later, as the ice melted from the ground
and as new, lush, green life began to sprout all around us,
we laid our Lucy to rest in my parents’ yard,
and planted a tree above her.
Her grave stone reads
Lucy in the sky with diamonds
and we sang to her as we placed pebbles on her name.
The tree has now grown large and strong,
as has our tiny Lola.
I think of Lucy every time my Lola does a naughty trick,
or kisses me gently on my hand,
or looks at me, with the most soulful eyes,
as her silky fur shines in the sunlight.

We love you, Luc.
We feel your warmth and love surrounding us, always;
especially,
in the sunny spot.

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