Merry

Last Christmas morning,
a whole, long year ago,
as we stayed in bed and acted lazy,
and dreamed of the little girl that would be joining us in the coming year,
I never could have imagined the loved I’d feel,
as on the very next Christmas morning,
my little angel would be snuggled up in bed next to me,
sitting straight up,
shouting “Mama!” and clomping her hands down on the computer keyboard, giggling at the sound of the clicking.
I could have never imagined the laughter,
as on the very next Christmas Eve,
the baby would be high on sugar
from a yule log (posing as a birthday cake),
causing her to crawl around the bed until 2 hours past her bedtime, shrieking in absolute, sugary delight.
I could have never imagined the sense of wholeness I would feel,
as on the very next Christmas dawn,
my baby girl would be pressed up against me in bed,
holding my hand in hers, in her deep slumber,
and massaging gentle circles on my skin,
and breathing deeply, content in knowing that I’m near.
Last Christmas,
when I looked like this

I could have never imagined how miraculous,
how bright,
how shiny and sweet
and holy
being a mother could be.
 
And for this,
this Jew is pretty darn Merry.
Wishing a Very Merry day of love, to you and yours.

2 Comments
  • Sharla Feldscher
    December 25, 2010

    Becca — I LOVE this Mommy Ever After. (I love so many.) I just sent it to my daughter Hope and her husband Joe. Hope is having a C section on January 4th and bringing their baby girl into the world!! I know she and Joe will love reading this. Thank you … for your wisdom and giant heart. Merry to all, for sure! My best to you and your family, Sharla

    • mommyeverafter
      January 1, 2011

      Thank you so much, Sharla, your kindness means so much to me! And Mazel Tov on your growing family!!

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