“I need to access your heart.”

"Does that stethoscope really work?" he asked, his blue, marble-like eyes widening. "Of course! I am a real doctor," I said, straightening the lab coat I had gotten made for his Halloween birthday party. I'd had it embroidered with "Meredith Grey M.D. F.A.C.S." to wear along with my scrubs, messy bun, Grey + Sloan Memorial Hospital ID badge, and converse ...

This Old House: A Before and After (Part One)

Over the past 26 months, there has been a central character in my life story that has not yet been properly introduced. My home. I call it my home deliberately, and not just "my house," as from the moment I walked through the doors and stood in the (then) mustard-yellow entryway, I said, "this is where I ...

lists of five.

Hello, there. Nice to see you again so soon. Look. I am going to be straight up with you. This just happened: That's right. I wrote a post, the program stopped responding, quit and did not save my work. This is now a test for me; a test in brevity. In my original version of this post I went into the whole ...

13 Reasons Why

Almost exactly one year ago (literally - it was May 24, 2017) I published a hard, raw, potentially controversial post entitled, I am a 32-year-old Mom and Here are the Thirteen Reasons Why I Can Relate to Hannah Baker. I had finished watching the Netflix series for the second time (Ok..maybe it was the third...or fourth?) and felt so, ...

Thanks to you

Hello! Happy Wednesday! If you are anywhere near me, right now, I hope that you are staying warm. If you are not, and blissfuly far away, I envy you. But, you deserve it. Because you're the best. I am writing to give thanks. To give thanks to you. I wrote last week when the book was officially released and since ...

What I’ve learned

Happy New Year's Eve! 2017 is coming to an end and I can already see 2018 peeking in from around the bend. In all honesty, in many ways, 2017 sucked. We had a huge loss in our family. I was really disappointed by some people and that was hard. Many times, I even cried. But 2017 was also the most transformative year of my ...

What I want

 I cannot start this post without acknowledging two important things: 1. I have a LOT about which to write. I have formulated at least a dozen posts in my head over the holiday weekend (about gratitude, parenting my daughter v. my son, Thanksgiving and what it means to me...) but, for now, this is what is flying ...

Forgive me

Dear Friends, Will you forgive me? Every single day for the past week I have picked up my computer, opened it up with the intention to write... and then stopped. Every single day. I do not know what is getting in my way. I have so much to share; perhaps that weight feels crushing. Last week, I published this, as that was ...

The other things

Not too long ago I wrote a post about the things that I would, without a doubt, never be able to do. No matter how hard I worked, the "never" things in that piece were unattainable and I could accept some of those things more easily than others. Not being able to marry a Kardashian? Fine. Not being able to Kardashian ...

I was a really good mom today.

I say that with no sarcasm, nor do I say it boastfully. I was a good mom today because I made myself proud. I have talked a lot about guilt, and my constant feeling (fear) that I am not _____ enough. In reality my life kind of went like this: I had one baby. Everyone was happy. I made innovative, ...