“I need to access your heart.”

"Does that stethoscope really work?" he asked, his blue, marble-like eyes widening. "Of course! I am a real doctor," I said, straightening the lab coat I had gotten made for his Halloween birthday party. I'd had it embroidered with "Meredith Grey M.D. F.A.C.S." to wear along with my scrubs, messy bun, Grey + Sloan Memorial Hospital ID badge, and converse ...

It made my heart hurt.

Last Monday, when I picked my kids up from school, my son was brimming with excitement. "MOM," he said, breathlessly. "I had the BEST DAY. We went to the LIBRARY and I got to take out a BOOK for the WHOLE WEEK!" His excitement made me excited, and so that night the four of us cuddled up in his bed ...

Not enough

The photo above was taken last month at Ludlow House, on the Lower East Side, for my sister's pub day party. It shows a little bit of sparkle. And makeup. And the cool updo. And glitter. Gotta get my glitter back.  *** I couldn’t have scripted this any better. This morning, I woke up and I lingered in ...

Motherhood Understood

Hey! It's been a long time, now hasn't it? I've missed you! And, it's been a really long time since we've gone deep. Or talked about boobs. I had the chance to do all of these things, and so much more, when I spoke to Brooke and Jen of Motherhood Understood, a place where guilt can be thrown ...

The Hardest Post

This post - titled, "The Hardest Post I've Ever Written," was originally published on here on February 24, 2014: on my son's four-month-birthday.  That means, of course, that this was written at exactly four months postpartum, for me. I am re-posting this, today, to give context to some of what is to come; some of what ...

Mommy Gut

As humans, we are often told to listen to our hearts. We are told to pay attention to our "inner voice" and that its words should reign supreme over all else. There is an actual movement surrounding a greater effort to pay attention to our feelings, and while this is something that I would ordinarily get behind (and, in ...

New Year’s Resolutions

Hello! Here I am! I could write about the last couple of weeks, and how much has happened, and everything about the book the book the book, but I think that we could all use a break from the book the book the book. And I have a promise on which to make good. On New Year's Eve I ...

Thanks to you

Hello! Happy Wednesday! If you are anywhere near me, right now, I hope that you are staying warm. If you are not, and blissfuly far away, I envy you. But, you deserve it. Because you're the best. I am writing to give thanks. To give thanks to you. I wrote last week when the book was officially released and since ...

Beyond the Baby Blues

Happy Birthday, Book! Today is the day! After years of writing, months of teasing, weeks of sharing photos and videos of reviews, copies and clips... today, "Beyond the Baby Blues: Anxiety and Depression During and After Pregnancy" is out! I am so overwhelmed by this -- we wrote a book! If you do get a chance to read Beyond the Baby Blues, ...

What I’ve learned

Happy New Year's Eve! 2017 is coming to an end and I can already see 2018 peeking in from around the bend. In all honesty, in many ways, 2017 sucked. We had a huge loss in our family. I was really disappointed by some people and that was hard. Many times, I even cried. But 2017 was also the most transformative year of my ...