The Hardest Post

This post - titled, "The Hardest Post I've Ever Written," was originally published on here on February 24, 2014: on my son's four-month-birthday.  That means, of course, that this was written at exactly four months postpartum, for me. I am re-posting this, today, to give context to some of what is to come; some of what ...

a squeeze kiss and ice cream trucks.

In August, I told my son about the fact that I'd had severe postpartum depression after he was born. I did not use those words, of course; rather, I told him that "I got a little sad" and he understood it and did not understand it and it was a pretty good balance. In January, my book came out and I ...

Mommy Gut

As humans, we are often told to listen to our hearts. We are told to pay attention to our "inner voice" and that its words should reign supreme over all else. There is an actual movement surrounding a greater effort to pay attention to our feelings, and while this is something that I would ordinarily get behind (and, in ...

Why I wrote “Beyond the Baby Blues”

(Originally published on postpartum project, as "Why I wrote "Beyond the Baby Blues") *** “If this can help one woman then it is worth it.” That was my refrain. That was what I said. That was what I typed, even when my hands trembled. In February of 2014 I made a decision that would change the trajectory of my life ...

New Year’s Resolutions

Hello! Here I am! I could write about the last couple of weeks, and how much has happened, and everything about the book the book the book, but I think that we could all use a break from the book the book the book. And I have a promise on which to make good. On New Year's Eve I ...

Beyond the Baby Blues

Happy Birthday, Book! Today is the day! After years of writing, months of teasing, weeks of sharing photos and videos of reviews, copies and clips... today, "Beyond the Baby Blues: Anxiety and Depression During and After Pregnancy" is out! I am so overwhelmed by this -- we wrote a book! If you do get a chance to read Beyond the Baby Blues, ...

Their names

Ok. This is a biggie. Not in the way that some other posts are biggies, but in a different (and maybe even biggie-er) way. I have been writing this blog for over seven and a half years. On it I have shared my innermost thoughts and feelings; my deep secrets; my real-time triumphs and trials. I have even shared ...

What I want

 I cannot start this post without acknowledging two important things: 1. I have a LOT about which to write. I have formulated at least a dozen posts in my head over the holiday weekend (about gratitude, parenting my daughter v. my son, Thanksgiving and what it means to me...) but, for now, this is what is flying ...

Something Funny

Here's a joke for you: "Why is a computer so smart? It listens to its Motherboard!" *** OK, so I am notorious for being terrible at telling jokes. Don't get me wrong; I think that I am FUNNY AF. I just can't seem to do the whole "What is the definition of a sweater?" thing. See? Even that made no sense. (Just ...

The Never Podcast

When it comes to my tribe, I am so lucky. I have said it before and I will say it again. I feel so grateful that my best friends, with whom I speak to regularly, send me texts saying, "You NEED to publish a new episode of the podcast! I miss your voice!" They know my stories. They do hear my ...