Dear Kenny

Dear Kenny, As I leave the hospital, the place where both of our babies were born, and handed to us, and first fed by me, and diapered by you, I hit a sea of blue scrubs, all in different shades and tones. When I first pulled up this morning, for an early test, I thought that it would be like living out ...

Dear babies

Dear babies, First off, I know that you are not babies.  But, I also know that when I feel one of you reach for me in the middle of the night, or smile as you greet me with sleepy, almond-eyes first thing in the morning, or kiss your eyelids as you slumber, it's just like you are my little babies all over again. It ...

All the things.

Oh my. It has been so long, and I am so sorry, for that. In the past, I've lamented the fact that I feel like a fraud of a blogger, as of late. Yes, I have a blog, and yes, I have been sharing on said blog since June of 2010, but, recently, my long posts and intricate ...

a blogger?

Hello, my friends. How are you, on this fine day? Did you rest well? I sure hope so. Speaking of rest, I was thinking of you this morning, at 4:30, when I was roused from slumber and then could not manage to fall back to sleep. I tried all of my go-to tricks; the healthy ones, to start. ...

“I need to access your heart.”

"Does that stethoscope really work?" he asked, his blue, marble-like eyes widening. "Of course! I am a real doctor," I said, straightening the lab coat I had gotten made for his Halloween birthday party. I'd had it embroidered with "Meredith Grey M.D. F.A.C.S." to wear along with my scrubs, messy bun, Grey + Sloan Memorial Hospital ID badge, and converse ...

Mommy Gut

As humans, we are often told to listen to our hearts. We are told to pay attention to our "inner voice" and that its words should reign supreme over all else. There is an actual movement surrounding a greater effort to pay attention to our feelings, and while this is something that I would ordinarily get behind (and, in ...

Why I wrote “Beyond the Baby Blues”

(Originally published on postpartum project, as "Why I wrote "Beyond the Baby Blues") *** “If this can help one woman then it is worth it.” That was my refrain. That was what I said. That was what I typed, even when my hands trembled. In February of 2014 I made a decision that would change the trajectory of my life ...

Thanks to you

Hello! Happy Wednesday! If you are anywhere near me, right now, I hope that you are staying warm. If you are not, and blissfuly far away, I envy you. But, you deserve it. Because you're the best. I am writing to give thanks. To give thanks to you. I wrote last week when the book was officially released and since ...

Beyond the Baby Blues

Happy Birthday, Book! Today is the day! After years of writing, months of teasing, weeks of sharing photos and videos of reviews, copies and clips... today, "Beyond the Baby Blues: Anxiety and Depression During and After Pregnancy" is out! I am so overwhelmed by this -- we wrote a book! If you do get a chance to read Beyond the Baby Blues, ...

Their names

Ok. This is a biggie. Not in the way that some other posts are biggies, but in a different (and maybe even biggie-er) way. I have been writing this blog for over seven and a half years. On it I have shared my innermost thoughts and feelings; my deep secrets; my real-time triumphs and trials. I have even shared ...