Because I am very tired

I was going to make the title of this post "Guilt." but something about that felt vaguely familiar to me. So I did a quick search and exactly one month ago, on February 3, I wrote an entire post about guilt. At that point my guilt was centered around the pressure I was putting on ...

to believe

This has been a week filled with emotional highs and emotional lows; And it's funny, because some days that seemed really bad ended up turning out ok; Then, on other days that started out so joyful, storm clouds moved in and things fell apart. This week I learned that I was capable of strength that I did not ...

We talked about sex. (Let’s talk some more.)

SEE BELOW FOR IMPORTANT UPDATE: Last week, I wrote my first ever post about sex. I am very careful about the content that I include on my site, a site called "Mommy, Ever After", but I think that the post (and the subsequent conversations that it sparked) are lifestyle issues that will help all of us ...

But then I erased my text.

I started to type this post thinking that I would link to all of the New Year's Eves that I have written about in the past, referencing some recent posts about letting things go and moving forward, but in an effort to really take steps away from the past, I am going to leave those ...

Letting it go.

This was sent to me yesterday by a dear friend. I needed it. I then sent it to another dear friend. She needed it. Every day, we all carry things with us; hopes, fears, ideas, identities... Some of these things lift us up. Some of my labels I wear proudly: Wife, mother, friend, daughter, grand-daughter, teacher, twin, writer, confidant, ...

Snapshot of a Day

Tuesday, November 4th. It is Election Day. It is my Poppy Don's 86th birthday. It is the date when my son was supposed to have his bris, had he not come 4 days before his scheduled C-Section. But this Tuesday is also an anniversary, and not a good one. A year ago on the Tuesday of this week I received ...

Super.

This weekend my baby turned one. I type these words with tears in my eyes. Some are happy tears, some are grateful tears, and some, I will admit, are wistful. My son; this child of mine has surprised me from the very beginning. He surprised me when I peed on a stick and saw two lines. Really? But ...

A whole new level.

This weekend was pretty awesome. And it's been a while since we could say that so let me pause a second so I can knock on wood. OK, back. Anyway, instead of going to the shore or taking a day trip, we stuck around, walked down the empty streets, soaked up the sun and enjoyed our fantastic ...

Acts of loving kindness.

When I was teaching older kids, I used to reward my students for acts of loving kindness; little things that I would observe that would recognize these children for their good deeds and generosity towards others. Today, I would love to make an Acts of Loving Kindness Chart of my own. In one day, I experienced four ...

Burst pipes, burst tears, and the craziest week ever.

There are times when I find it difficult to find the words to type. Other times, they just come pouring out. Like a flood. I write this post from a chair in my parents' living room, in my dad's XL sweatshirt, reeling. Tears are starting to form in my eyes. Like a flood. *** This week we had historic rains. When we ...